“Read contracts from C shelf”
“This is the one.”
“She’ll be back”
“Wait for the storm to end”
“A battle is coming. Can’t you feel it?”
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“He’ll be leaving soon”
Pieces
Being uncomfortable does not mean that you are in wrong path
Maybe
This is just another battle to equip you with improved skill
Or another course to take you to the next level
Or another piece to complete the puzzle
Just be held
Wait for the time to come
And when you look back
You will smile with no regret
Daydream
Yes I know
I’m wasting my time remembering
And when do I know that reality is still the same?
Is this just expectation, because my thought usually misleads me
But yeah
This is only another day
But already I miss you
Do you
miss me?
Raindrops
A traveller thought he had walked so long
Cities, villages
Skyscraper, underground cave
Each brings different story, story he would never forget
The traveller thought he has tasted so much
Pain, excitement
Restlessness, joy
He thought he had enough
In a cloudy day, he stood tall
Then raindrops fell down
His bare skin recognized the old friend
The same raindrops has come again Continue reading
Soulmate
I don’t believe in one
Because what I thought the one was leaving
And put me in a misery year
I kept talking to myself
“It is fine, you’ll find another.”
“Maybe you misheard what God said about him, but it’s fine”
“He has chosen, so have you. Choose to love your life.”
But things didn’t get better so I spoke louder
“Damn it can’t you let your feelings go?”
“Will you stop crying like a baby? It’s been like 8 months, and you have to finish your final assignment!”
But sometimes myself blames me for more
“Shit, why should you meet him in the first time? Why didn’t you just pass him by, so he didn’t even have any chance to talk to you?”
“IT HURTS! CAN YOU STOP TELLING ME WHAT TO DO? YOU DON’T KNOW WHAT I FEEL!”
H+42
These are another imaginary conversation with me and my observer self regarding all mourning for the loss. It was not an easy road, but yeah, that’s life. Enjoy 🙂
Hi, what’s up?
Hmm, mixed up.
This never occurs in my mind, that coping with loss will be this painful. It’s not an overstating. Faith and encouragement come, but when we fail to look upon God, heavy mood begins to enter the heart. The tug-of-war between these extremes (faith and mood) is unavoidable, and often exhausting. It’s like you experience personal explosions inside your body, day by day, unseen by the other people. Terribly exhausting.
Terima Kasih !
The loss of loved one is a huge deal, especially when she accounts for 50% of your existence reason. When we couldn’t stand, we thank God for every supportive hand, every encouragement, every text message, every call, every shared tears, and every wise advice. Those really help us to face the future.
My deepest gratitude belongs to:
